A vivid childhood memory of an encounter with the unknown
When I was quite young, maybe four-years old, I
made a miraculous discovery... I discovered a magic door!
My mom and I were in downtown Stockton, California, on the second
floor of the main branch of the San Joaquin County Public Library (I
believe it's now called the "Cesar Chavez Memorial Library"). It was a
huge building inside, at least from the perspective of a four-year old,
with cavernous ceilings, tall counters that could barely be reached,
giant barrel-shaped light fixtures hanging high above, and aisles and
aisles of books that went on for as far as my young eyes could see.
A housewife with an insatiable appetite for reading but no money to actually buy
books, mom spent quite a bit of time in libraries. She would check out as many
books as she could at one time, devour their contents
within days, then head back for more. Still being too young for
school, I often accompanied my mom on these 'foraging expeditions,'
exploring the quiet, mysterious confines of our local libraries.
The large downtown branch was the most mysterious to me
as a child, partially due to its size, but more because we seldom
went there. Fair Oaks Library was our local branch, located on the
east-side of town, in a neighborhood we called "Okieville".
It was a small, single-story, wooden-framed building, white with blue
trim, located where another street merged into East Main Street at a
sharp angle, creating the small 'point' upon which the library stood.
Fair Oaks also had a free morning daycare program, where my mom could
drop me off, head back home for some uninterrupted housework, then
return to pick me up a couple of hours later (along with a few books, of
course). I remember sneaking away during story-time, exploring the
familiar aisles of books, ruffling through pages looking for pictures,
and spying on the librarians and other adults through small gaps between
books.
The downtown branch was less fun and familiar, and more
mysterious... Even scary. The aisles of books seemed sky-high, and
appeared to go on further than the entire inside of Fair Oaks. And the
reference section, located deep in the back, was less well lit, with dark
and musty smelling aisle-ways. I think that, due to the intimidating
atmosphere of the place, I tried to stay as close to my mom as possible most of the
time. Sometimes though, she'd start reading right there in the library,
not wanting to wait until we got back home, and I remember feeling
so bored just
standing around doing
nothing. So, even though I was afraid, I still
occasionally wandered off to explore... Which is how I discovered 'the
magic door.'
It was near the front, next to a section dedicated to
paperbacks, not too far from the checkout counter; Just a big, blue section of wall in the midst of a larger white wall. Once, while I happened to
be looking in that direction, I saw someone walk up to that blue section, push against the wall with their finger, and the wall silently, magically parted! The person who had pressed against
the wall then passed through the opening and disappeared, the wall closing
behind them.
I snuck closer, peering around racks of books,
trying to get a better look. Another person approached, and this time I
could see the shiny black button they pressed. I
watched as that blue section of wall silently parted once again, and yet another person
disappeared!
To this day, I have no idea what possessed me to press
that button. A fearless daredevil I was not, so it may have been curiosity... Or more likely boredom. Whatever the reason, I pressed the button, watched the
blue section of wall magically part, stepped inside, and foun
d myself
trapped in a
strange room!
I don't know that I even noticed the inside buttons, or
that my panic allowed me to register anything other than the fact that I
was trapped somewhere, in a strange room, away from my mommy. I do remember
screaming, and
screaming, and
screaming some more... At the top
of my lungs, for what seemed like
hours (though I'm sure it wasn't). When
the doors finally opened again, either by someone who had heard my
screams or, more likely, by the next person who needed to use the
elevator, I ran out of that strange room as fast as I could, straight to my mom. I'd had more than enough 'adventure' for one day!
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